When your heart's desire is for God, and Jesus is your primary purpose, any separation from Him is intolerable! And that's what sin causes; separation from God! Mercy and grace is extended till you reach a point where the sin has to be addressed. The best way explained of how God cleans us up is the peeling of an onion. Each layer of the onion representing another hidden sin in our heart whose time is up for removal at its root.
A friend at church Sunday described it as the difference of pruning back the sin, as opposed to digging it out by the root! She pointed out when you prune a plant it just grows in greater abundance, and so does sin!
That's what I had done with the sin of Anger! I had kept it pruned back to a manageable state and the root had gotten stronger, until this weekend it's existence was made apparent!
"Give ear, O LORD, to my prayer; And attend to the voice of my supplications. In the day of my trouble I will call upon You, For You will answer me."(Psalms 86:6, 7 NKJV)
I did cry out to The Lord, to show me my sin; I cried for days! The attack of the enemy intense, yet all the while He was bringing me to the place of discovery.
He showed me the buried anger from my childhood, the unforgiveness and judgement of my father's anger directed at me, and I confessed and repented!
"Teach me Your way, O LORD; I will walk in Your truth; Unite my heart to fear Your name. I will praise You, O Lord my God, with all my heart, And I will glorify Your name forevermore. For great is Your mercy toward me, And You have delivered my soul from the depths of Sheol." (Psalms 86:11-13 NKJV)
Living an obedient and repentant life is my heart's desire! Allowing Him to clean me and purify me as He deems necessary and in His timing, my aim. His satisfaction at the result displayed by encouragement from many avenues, delightful to my spirit man!
"But You, O Lord, are a God full of compassion, and gracious, Longsuffering and abundant in mercy and truth. Oh, turn to me, and have mercy on me! Give Your strength to Your servant, And save the son of Your maidservant. Show me a sign for good, That those who hate me may see it and be ashamed, Because You, LORD, have helped me and comforted me." (Psalms 86:15-17 NKJV)
There is nothing sweeter than waking up in the middle of the night and feeling a gentle breeze, carrying the fragrance of honeysuckle through your open window. It's as if you've been kissed on the forehead by God; and the impression, "Go back to sleep daughter, all is well!"
No, nothing sweeter!
Even so - MARANATHA!
From 5/20/14, 7/5/15, 7/16/16
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